Thursday, April 3, 2008

I'm a Weight Watcher....

Well, the past 2 days, I've walked during my lunch break. I only have to time for a 15 to 20 minute walk but I guess it's better'n nuttin - which is what I've been doing. About 8 weeks ago, I joined Weight Watchers....(Hello, my name is Lesley and I'm FAT) Anyway, I do really well for a week or so and then I fall off the weight loss wagon. This jiggly gut is problem for me not only because my son pats it and says, "You full a lunch, Mommy?" HAAAAAAAATE IT! I also suffer from LPR which is reflux that causes the burning in your larynx and pharynx (lovely - I know) beside that it is also a major hinderance in my singing...too much GUT to pick up with them thar sangin muskles!

Okay back to the walking, so yes, I've walked for the last 2 days and then immediately gone to my AP's office and snarfed down a ga-gillion of those tasty little peanut butter and chocolate eggs - and no, they're not even the reese's eggs...just some ol generic brand...none the less tasty though. I do have that little monthly visitor on which to lay some of the blame. Right before "Aunt Polly" arrives....I could eat my weight and yours too in...well this month it's peanut butter and chocolate. Sometimes it's chips and salsa and sometimes it's SEE Food - ya know I SEE it and I EAT it! All these folks around me seem to have the will power - I used to...long time ago I could sit beside a plate of warm chocolate chip cookies and never eat I eat the plate (after the cookies of course).
Last night, there I was just standing there in front of the pantry....door open...scanning....what can I eat? Was I hungry NOOOOOOOOOO, but alas....I stood there wondering WHY I was standing there. I kept saying...just go to bed, you're tired - you're eating to stay awake. Don't fight it - give in to the sleep monkey. Which I did after a GInormous glass of really chocolatey milk! Curses...foiled again!


Sarah said...

Excuse me but do you have a camera mounted in my kitchen?

Cuz I do the same zact thang.
Darn it. Darn it to heck.

But choklit tastes so stink'good.

Robin Lambright said...

I feel your pain girlfriend!!!!! It is such a difficult challenge. It isn’t like smoking or alcohol. We simply can not give up eating! But I do think we are bombarded everyday with mixed messages. Look at the advertisements on television. In the span of a few minutes we are told we can lose it easy with Nutri system, or all we have to do is Call Jenny, or for 19.95 a month we can walk the pounds away with our own home gym, but in-between each of these commercials we get to yearn for the $5.00 pizza deal, or the Dove chocolate moment as that brown ribbon of silk washes over the size 4 model, or the KFC/Blue Bell Ice Cream/Milky Way….commercial. Then the one that really send me over the edge are the Lean Cuisine and Special K commercials where all the women in them clearly do not need to be losing any weight what so ever and they are lamenting their hunger over rice cakes. It is so not real world.
I know I’m not a ringing endorsement for the program, but for a time the “First Place” program at church really worked for me. I lost 40 pounds and was able to keep it if for some time. I was my own lack of due diligence that inched me back to were I am now. It was also a fact that every time my nearly 50 year old body would try to seriously exercise I would wind up injured and would have to prop my knee up with ice for the next 4 weeks until I could walk again. I am regretfully nearly back to my starting point. I have been toying with the idea of going back to the program, it did really work, but as I sit at this very moment with my knee propped up with the heating pad due to my last battle with the elliptical machine. I again am frustrated beyond belief. The great thing is that every day we have an opportunity to start again. So keep walking and don’t beat yourself up for those daily defeats. To borrow from a formidable southern heroin Scarlet O’Hara “Tomorrow is another day!”
And hey if you make that GInormous glass of really chocolaty milk with skim then it isn’t so bad. I’m a fan of the occasional glass of chocolate milk myself. YUM!!!!!

Nancy said...

I'm praying for you, sister!

It's great that you're exercising-I have trouble doing that regularly. I don't like being out of breath or sweating, and exercise has a tendency to do that to me.

As for food - if food were alcohol or drugs, I'd be on skid row by now. It's where I gravitate when I'm happy. . .or sad. . .or breathing. :P

I hope it'll encourage you to know that Weight Watchers appears to be working for me. My willpower is less than zero, but I've still managed to lose 30 pounds since the end of July. I'd have lost more, probably, but did I mention that I have a problem with willpower? I backslide from time to time, but I've been able to catch myself before I get too far off course.

When the crisis moments hit, I've found apples and carrots to fill me up pretty quick; but, let's get real, sometimes it ain't about the hunger. The WW snack cakes are only one point and are pretty tasty. I also like the double chocolate 60-calorie Jello puddings (chocolate being my primary drug of choice). When my willpower is completely crumbling and I find myself standing with the phone in my shaking hand as I start to dial Domino's, I have found it helpful to go stand in front of my full-length mirror and take a good look. That usually causes the carrots and water to look pretty attractive.

Hang in there, girl - I know you can do it!